Thursday, July 30, 2009

LOVE SHIT

Here we go again. When people say "love hurts," they weren't lying.  This LOVE SHIT is becoming too much for me.  I'm new to this whole LOVE SHIT game. I mean I've had a connection or two, even a very strong like.  But this time around, it's this LOVE SHIT.  How do I know? Because I'm doing things that are so out of character for me. If I was on the outside of the situation looking at myself, I would say that I was stupid. I would call myself all kinds of stupid bitches and tell myself to get it together.  I would criticize the hell out of me; I do it to others all the time. But I think that is because I've never had to deal with this LOVE SHIT.

This LOVE SHIT is cool when everything is going right. When we are both 'acting right.'  It can be the best thing that has happened to you.  But when there's a fuck up on one of our part, this LOVE SHIT can blow up in your face like a grenade (lately it's been like WWII).  This LOVE SHIT has my head spinning and my heart hurting.  The depth of sadness is often unbearable. The battle scars are unrepairable. But when the smoke clears that LOVE SHIT is still there. Now I'm at a crossroad, do I put up with this LOVE SHIT or do I tell this LOVE SHIT to kiss my ass?   

Which of the sayings are true?:

When you love something you let it go.

OR

Fight for the one you love./Anything that is worth having is worth fighting for.

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