Hello Goodbye

Reflecting on another year in the books. I went through many changes in 2011. I realized that no matter what, the only person I need to try to please is myself. I also learned that I do not give myself enough credit for the accomplishments that I have achieved in my life. I have alot to be proud of.

2012 will be my last year in my 20s. There has been so much learning and growth that has happened within this time that I can honestly say that I am ready for a new chapter. I will do alot of things differently this year.

I will....
....no longer deal with b.s. from the opposite sex.
....no longer doubt my worth
....strive for the best in every aspect of life.
....tell my family and friends I love them every chance I get.
....pray through my problems instead of complaining about them.
....be realistic about my faults and try to change them.
....continue to be honest with others.
....cry when i need to.
....be angry less often.
....try to be more health conscience.
....save more and spend less.
....try to be more understanding.
....use less profanity.
....do more community service.
....never ever again contemplate suicide.

These are not resolutions....they are life style changes. I feel it is important the as individuals we continue to better ourselves as "WE" see fit. Improvement is necessary for everyone to grow and reach self gratification.

Happy New Year All!!!

IS LOVE ENOUGH??

LIFE IS FILLED WITH SO MANY UPS AND DOWNS. AT SOME POINT MY LIFE SEEMED LIKE ALL IT HAD WAS DOWNS. BUT I HAD FAITH THAT ONEDAY THOSE DOWNS WOULD TURN TO UPS. AND THEY HAVE FOR THE MOST PART: THINGS AT WORK HAVE GOTTEN BETTER, I WAS ABLE TO REMOVE THE NEGATIVE PEOPLE FROM MY LIFE AND I FINALLY FOUND LOVE.

I MET A NICE GUY WHO WASNT WHAT I TYPICALLY WANTED IN A MATE. BUT ONCE I GOT TO KNOW HIM I REALIZED THAT HE WAS A KIND AND SWEET MAN AND I FEEL IN LOVE WITH HIM. BUT JUST AS WITH EVERY OTHER RELATIONSHIP, ITS NOT EASY. WE HAVE OUR ROUGH TIMES AND WE TRY TO WORK TOGETHER THROUGH THOSE TIMES. BUT LATELY I HAVE BEEN FEELING ALONE IN OUR RELATIONSHIP. I AM TRYING TO BE PATIENT AND UNDERSTANDING BUT IT GETS VERY FRUSTRATING. I WANT THIS TO WORK OUT I WANT TO BE WITH HIM FOREVER AND EVER BUT I NEED HIM TO MEET ME HALF WAY.

PEOPLE SAY THAT LOVE ISN'T ENOUGH TO SUSTAIN A RELATIONSHIP. THEY SAY IT TAKES COMMUNICATION, COOPERATION AND COMPROMISE. I THINK I AGREE.... *sigh*