Sometimes I want to give up on everything. On school...on work...on coaching...on being a good person...on life!!! It took everything in me not to take off my seat belt and drive right into a telephone pole or a brick building. Things get so hard at times and I wonder why I even try. Lately it seems that every little thing is making me angry. Last week my anger went to a level that I haven't seen in years and I ended up hurting someone physically. I will live with what I did for the rest of my life.
The tears won't stop flowing. My mind continues to race a mile a minute. I feel so unstable..I feel like i can explode at anytime. I'm going to try to hold it together...for who? I don't know. But while I try and figure this shit out, for now, I am going to just sip on this wine and thank God for my health...my strength...my career...and everything that has brought me thus far.
Pray For Me.
Monday, December 21, 2009
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